I look like Kintaro Oe from Golden Boy today, you have no idea how happy that makes me.
Just crowd surfed to Prom Night, while Bianca Raquel was on stage singing, such a great show
Finally listened to the John Darnielle episode of WTF with Marc Maron, and I am quite happy I did. Found out he attended Mt. Sac, which is one of the two schools I currently attend (one serious school, and one school to take care of electives). I am currently going through a crisis of conscience, and to hear all the shit he went through, and how he’s now in a better place just put me in this positive mood. I feel like I can be something more. I can be an agent of change. I just need to deal, and take care of problems as they come, letting everything pile up is the worst, and that is how I screwed myself up from 2002 - until now. I feel like ten years is a long enough time to pity myself and blame everyone else. My life isn’t slowing down, and I won’t always have someone to pick me up. I need to get my shit together, get my priorities in order, and finally do right by me. Life is a struggle, life is a challenge, and right now at this very moment, I’ve decided that I am finally up for the task.
So I have been in Southern California for a few months now, after a few failed months in Portland, I’m down with school in a month. I have no clue regarding what I want to do or anything. I’m thinking about moving to Oakland, it will be a lot closer to my parents and nephews, and I can see my sister whenever I go into San Francisco. There is that clichéd statement “Bloom where you’re planet” or “the grass is always greener” the problem is I have never been happy, in any of the multitude of locations I have lived. So it could be another colossal waste of money, or I could finally find myself. Maybe I should crowd source where I move to next. So where do you think I should live?
Just got hit on by a biker at a stoplight. Was it because; I’m wearing a magenta shirt, lipsyncing to More, More, More by Andrea True Connection, driving an alien green Kia Soul, or because in just so damn kawaii.
What do you think?
I had this really deep, profound conversation about religion and the state of the modern Catholic church at this orgy last weekend. That conversation got me thinking about and reexamining my own religious views and opinions, I went to an independent megachurch on Wednesday night and was really dismayed by what I saw. The priest told a lot of off-color jokes, and kind of just offended me, plus all the patrons were just too happy to be there. Growing up in a strong Catholic family I learned early on to live with Catholic Guilt, no one went to church to get happy, they went to church because of the debt we owed Christ for saving us of our sins. Though I didn’t enjoy that one particular church, I’m still going to try and further my religious education, this weekend I will go to a Buddhist temple a few towns over, and a Hindu temple in the same town next week. Not saying religion is the answer, or that I’m seeking some path to enlightenment, I personally just want to become as educated as possible, and I feel the only way I can educate myself is to get out, see the world, and talk to as many different people about their own life experiences and beliefs as possible.
Way too sore and tired to be productive today. Finally ate something about twenty minutes ago, ended up drinking all the cranberry juice in the house as well. Going to heat up around thirty meatballs, rewatch Burning Love: Burning Down the House and play Chrono Trigger. Hope everyone had a pleasant weekend.
I’m dressed like rough trade, out of my mind stoned, at a live performance of a deranged Japanese children’s show.